Author Archives: Mistress Ayn

Installment #8 – When “playing” with chastity became a “lifestyle” of chastity. – by slaveboy

Many men and some couples “play” with chastity.  As a male, it was a fun way to fantasize that a Dominant Woman was in control of my cock and restricting me from getting an erection or orgasming.  i would put on the cage for a few minutes, an hour, or even a day, but then remove it when i wanted and revert to my familiar masturbation practices.

Couples often use chastity as a way to spice up their sex life, with the female taking control and the male submissive.  It is a fun way to spend a day together, or a weekend, or for the dominant partner to threaten longer chastity sentences.

Yet, at some point my “playing” with chastity became living a chastity “lifestyle.”  Once Mistress Ayn became my Keyholder and took over control of Her cock with Her chastity cage, my world was turned upside down, but in a good way.

Now i am permitted release from Her chastity cage for a few minutes, or an hour, or rarely a full day.  i never know when this permission will be granted.  Then, it is back to normal for me – back in Her cage, often without an orgasm and very rarely after a real orgasm.

i am unsure when this transformation actually occurred.  When did i realize that W/we were not “playing” with chastity but it was now a lifestyle?  Each month i pay my keyholder fee, as a tribute for the attention that Mistress Ayn gives me as Her chaste slave.  Each month there is no discussion of ending this relationship, nor do i intend to bring up.  W/we do not have a set ending – not after a month, or six months, or a year.  She does not refer to my chastity as permanent chastity but prefers indefinite chastity.

Indefinite, as in a lifestyle, suits me just fine.  It brings me closer to my desire for a female-led relationship, a life where i do not control my cock, and a re-orientation of my attitude toward pleasing a Woman, my Mistress, rather than satisfying my selfish carnal desires.  This seems to work for me right now in my life, even though i am not fully aware of when this transformation actually occurred.

Installment #7 – The “Evils” of ED Drugs – by slaveboy

Many men are aware (and an increasing number of women) that there are erectile dysfunction (ED) drugs on the market: Viagra, Cialis, and more.  Mistress Ayn enjoys ordering me to take one of these ED drugs since it does shorten the time for me to become erect after removal of Mistress’s chastity cage and the time i can remain erect.

Yet, Mistress Ayn’s enjoyment is in how She decides to use this medication – not exactly as prescribed.  Rather, She orders me to take the ED pill and then edge myself for a pre-determined length of time.  Since it has been so long since my last ordered edging session, i am erect within a few minutes – the ED pill has its effect.  But, rather than “finishing” and orgasming, Mistress Ayn orders me to stop before orgasm and place Her cock back into Her chastity cage.

This is where the “evils” of the ED pill start to become evident.  It is difficult to get a fully erect cock back into a small chastity cage.  But, as an obedient slave, i comply.

Then, the “evils” of the ED pill continue.  My ED pill “works” for a few days, but i am typically in chastity after the edging session.  Thus, any miniscule arousal is frustrating and painful as Mistress’s cage restricts me from becoming erect.  Mistress Ayn knows this, obviously, and often orders me to watch porn, further aggregating the frustration and painfulness and exacerbating the “evils” of the ED pill.

What is a medical marvel for many men and a wonder drug that enhances most relationships is a brilliantly evil and sadistic way for Mistress Ayn to further control me and remind me that She indeed is in charge of me and Her cock.  i am so appreciative of learning the lesson of the “evils” of the ED pill and having Mistress Ayn control my life, which includes Her cock.