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Trials and Tribulations of a chastity slave – Installment #17

Sunday, 06 October 2019 18:55
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Installment #17 – Mistress Ayn “Pushes” Me – by slaveboy

Reflecting on months as Mistress Ayn’s chaste slaveboy, there are many things i have experienced that i have desired, often in moderation: chastity, bondage and discipline, servitude, tease and denial, and more.  Yet, Mistress Ayn also knows how to “push” my limits for the things i desire and to introduce me to things i dislike or at least thought i did not want.

i enjoy chastity and Mistress Ayn being my Keyholder … but … She “pushes” me as i have been controlled and restricted from freely touching, masturbating or orgasming for eight months … with no end in sight.  Mistress Ayn loves introducing me to “indefinite chastity.”  There is more.  At my last weekend at the FemDom Mansion, i was secured to the bondage bench expecting some discipline – for my birthday … what i received were eight strikes with a rattan cane. OMG, that was intense and, again, my limit for pain tolerance was “pushed,” never beyond what i could take but much more than what i thought i could handle.

As the FemDom Mansion Houseboy, i was “pushed” into many things i thought i would dislike and did not asked for, if that was an option: sissification, public humiliation, gangbang as a birthday gift, no whining or sassing, and more.  Mistresses at the Mansion now joke about many of my “hard limits.”  For instance, i was taken to a public shopping mall by a Mistress and a Goddess and ordered to walk around with Them. W/we shopped for sissy bling for me and sexy outfits for them.  i was ordered to carry my Goddess’ purse – “pushing” me beyond what i thought i wanted.  At the Mansion, Mistress Ayn created a display board to record the times i sassed a Mistress during the weekend and punishments were doled out based on this recorded number – a number much higher than i thought i could possibly take.  This “pushed” me to think about what i was about to say and be more respectful at all times of Mistresses.  i was subjected to much more as will be reported in Mistress Ayn’s blog and Twitter.

The closing thought – regardless of whether i ask for something or not, Mistress Ayn knows how to train me to accept whatever She desires for me to experience and to enhance my training as a submissive slaveboy.  i am so appreciative of this opportunity to serve in this way.

Sessions at DomCon NOLA, October 10th – 13th

Monday, 16 September 2019 19:49
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DomCon 2019 in New Orleans is just around the corner.  This year I will be attending as a Guest of Honor.  FemDom sessions will also be offered in the host hotel as My schedule allows.

Events I will attend include:

  • Opening night dinner
  • Red Carpet walk and opening ceremonies
  • ProDom Social
  • Kinky parade down Bourbon Street
  • The Mistress Tea
  • VIP Social
  • And of course the nightly play parties

Between these activities some time for sessions has been set aside.  I will also be available for public sessions at the play parties Friday, Saturday and Sunday nights.  These sessions are always a ton of fun – especially for the exhibitionists.

I will be hosting at the official DomCon hotel, the Astor Crowne Plaza located at 739 Canal Street at Bourbon Street.  As is normal when I travel, I will bring a ton of gear for bondage, corporal, CBT, electrical and medical.  If you have a special request, let Me know before the packing is done.

Session rates are as follows:

$300 – one hour
$440 – 90 minutes
$575 – 2 hours
$850 – 3 hours
Doubles start at $500 per hour

A deposit of 30% is required for all bookings.  If we have not sessioned together before an application is also required.

Trials and tribulations of a chastity slave – Installment #16

Sunday, 01 September 2019 12:13
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Image by Sardax. www.Sardax.com

Image by Sardax. www.Sardax.com

Installment #16 – “Running the Numbers” as Mistress Ayn’s slaveboy

Sometimes “running the numbers” – i.e., counting things – helps explain what it means to be Mistress Ayn’s slaveboy. 

Before i became Mistress Ayn’s slaveboy, i would typically masturbate every two to three days.  Then, Mistress Ayn placed me in indefinite chastity and Her cock became completely under Her control.  Running the numbers, i would have masturbated regularly during the past eight months (around 242 days), from when Mistress Ayn agreed to be my Keyholder until now, and had around 97 orgasms.

As Mistress Ayn’s slaveboy, things have certainly changed.  i have been permitted eight, yes eight, orgasms over the past eight months — not exactly the 97 orgasms i would have enjoyed without Mistress Ayn being my Keyholder.  That averages to one orgasm every 30 days – once a month, as opposed to orgasming every two or three days.  Adding in the one unauthorized orgasm while trapped in the Venus 2000 and the ten ordered, ruined orgasms over the past eight months that comes to a total of 19 ejaculations in 242 days, or one every 12.7 days. 

Keeping in mind that Mistress Ayn once ordered me to have three ruined orgasms in one hour and at another time to have one ruined orgasm, then two ruined orgasms in an hour, and then three ruined orgasms in two hours on three consecutive days as punishments.  So, in actuality, the ejaculations have come farther apart from each other than it seems.

Running the numbers shows the change in my life.  It shows how often i am allowed to enjoy “my” cock, which is now Mistress Ayn’s cock.  It shows that i am allowed to pleasure myself far less often now that Mistress Ayn is my Keyholder.

Moreover, the purpose behind an orgasm has changed.  It used to be for my hedonistic pleasure – an intense, mind-blowing, body-exhausting, self-gratifying orgasm.  Now, with Mistress Ayn as my Keyholder, things are different.  Mistress Ayn explained it best when She last directed me to orgasm: “I want you to orgasm so you know what you are missing when I deny you permission.”

It is possible that, for some subs, chastity is about regularly scheduled orgasms. As Mistress Ayn’s chastity slaveboy, it is about remembering what i gave up for the honor of being Mistress Ayn’s slaveboy.  And, it is so worth it!

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Tribute Etiquette

Wednesday, 28 August 2019 11:55
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How to present your tribute:

  1. Have it ready – counting out your tribute in front of Me is uncouth. Whether intended or not, I see it as a passive aggressive move to remind Me that you are paying and therefore in control. It’s not the best way to start your session.
  1. Have it in a plain, unsealed envelope. Even if you have been seeing Me for years, I may count the tribute in private before we start.  Especially if it’s a double or the tribute deviates from our norm.  I prefer not to have to rip the envelope open to do this check.
  1. Don’t write anything on the envelope. I would prefer not to have a bunch of envelopes with “Mistress Ayn” floating around out there – either in your pocket or the trash.  We all know who it is for.
  1. Just lay it down within eyesight upon entry. Don’t hand it to Me.  Most of Us were taught not to touch the tribute.  It’s a legal thing and I don’t know if it  holds water or not, but I have always done it this way and it just feels better to Me.  Somehow it’s less transactional and starts everything off right.

I can’t speak for all Dommes but this is how I like to receive My tribute.  If in doubt, ask.  It is your first live interaction with a Mistress, so get it right and start things off positively.

 

Trials and tribulations of a chastity slave – Installment #15

Monday, 19 August 2019 15:32
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Installment #15 – Control + Humiliation + Punishment in the Simplest of Things – by slave boy

i am committed to being Mistress Ayn’s chaste slave, Her slaveboy.  To simplify, this means that She is in complete control of me, will humiliate me as She deems necessary, and will impose punishment as needed or for no reason at all.  The combination of = control + humiliation + punishment has clearly crystallized my role as Mistress Ayn’s chaste slaveboy.  i find this combination in the simplest of experiences, especially when visiting Mistress Ayn at the FemDom Mansion.

Eating – all nourishment is in the form of table scraps served in a dog bowl consumed without the use of my hands = control + humiliation + punishment

Sleeping – alone in the dungeon on a thin mattress while chained to a metal post all night until Mistress Ayn returns to unlock me.  A plastic receptacle is nearby for my urination = control + humiliation + punishment

Dressing – naked all weekend unless serving Mistresses and Goddesses and then in feminine, maid, or sissy attire = control + humiliation + punishment

Socializing – never permitted to engage in conversation with other Mistresses or Goddesses during parties.  i am there to serve food and drinks, provide foot messages when instructed, and humiliated at Mistress Ayn’s whim.  i am allowed food if fed like a dog receiving a treat from a Mistress and only permitted water, never alcohol = control + humiliation + punishment

Showering – occurs outside on the patio where any Mistress can wield the garden hose with a multi-setting nozzle, with particular use of the “jet” setting on my genitals = control + humiliation + punishment

Speaking – i am allowed to respond to a Mistress or ask permission to speak; inappropriate speaking, especially sassy comments, are met with a ball gag and/or face slaps to correct this behavior = control + humiliation + punishment

Transportation – at the discretion of Mistress Ayn i am often told to wait at a hotel near the airport for further directions and then “chauffeured” by a Mistress but required to wear a blindfold, even in an Uber.  Never taken directly to the Mansion, rather stopping at a nail salon for a humiliating mani-pedi or to a dungeon for torture = control + humiliation + punishment

Control + humiliation + punishment sums up my role as Mistress Ayn’s submissive and chaste slaveboy and i would not want it any other way, not that i have any input once i committed to being Her slave.

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