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Trials and tribulations of a chastity slave – Installment #20

Sunday, 05 January 2020 18:20
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Installment #20 – About markings – physical and psychological – by slave boy

The dictionary defines “marking” as “the act, process, or an instance of making or giving a mark.”  This rather simplistically defined word takes on a profound, complex, and new meaning in my life, as i am now experiencing “markings” during my submissive and chaste service to Mistress Ayn.

Ironically, many, many months ago and long before i submitted to Mistress Ayn, “no marks” was a hard limit for me when serving any Mistress as Her submissive.  Then, Mistress Ayn asked about this “hard limit” and slowly brought me around to understand that receiving marks was something that pleased Mistress Ayn and can be administered in a safe and sane manner.  Now receiving marks is something i crave as Her personal slave.

A “mark” is a territorial indication that i am Mistress Ayn’s slave.  Sometimes the mark is clearly indicative of that belonging, as when Mistress Ayn leaves Her initial (the mark of an “A”) on my ass during a personal slave training session.  Other times the “mark” is less personal but nonetheless very profound and painful, as when Mistress Ayn flogs or whips my back or thighs, or canes my ass.  These marks do not last more than a few days past the session, as per O/our agreement, but i do find myself checking out the marks later and silently hoping they would last a few days longer.

In addition to the physical markings, the introduction of marks in my submissive life as Mistress Ayn’s slave has another important meaning lasting far beyond their physical presence.  Marking is how Mistress Ayn psychologically exhibits Her control over me and manifests Her possession or ownership of me as Her slave.

i am, as my Twitter name indicates, “Mistress Ayn’s slaveboy.”  That control and ownership is not only shown through physical markings but also psychologically, as She symbolically places Her “mark” on my mind and soul demonstrating Her power over me and in my life.

Markings can be a way of experiencing Mistress Ayn’s infliction of pain, Her physical control over me, and Her psychological ownership of me as Her slaveboy.  What was once inconceivable during a session with a Mistress, and thus a “hard limit,” markings are now a frequently desired occurrence in service to Mistress Ayn.  Receiving Her mark is something i am hoping for every time as i anticipate my next opportunity to serve Mistress Ayn as Her personal slaveboy.

Reflecting – 2019

Wednesday, 01 January 2020 09:43
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This is the time of year I like to reflect and look back on all the things I am grateful for, not only in the previous year, but in life in general.  First and foremost I am healthy and that is huge.  This was a year when many pro Dommes were lost and it provided a heavy dose of reality.  Life is short.  Even the strongest can fall.  Live life to its fullest every day and every way that you can.

In many ways 2019 was an extraordinary year.  FemDom Mansion continued to grow in public awareness and for the first year (now in year 4) we had events for submissives that were not in My direct sphere.  It was exciting to have a sub fly from the UAE just to partake in a long held fantasy and it was even more exciting to be the one that enabled his fantasies to come to life.  The Mansion also saw the collaring of slave boy jaime and dealt with the serious issue of gender identity with on new client.  All of these events were joyous and we look forward to more in 2020.

This is also the time when I start to think of individual clients and the importance they have in My life.  Yes, I do care for many of you – very much – and am grateful to have you in My life.  You keep My house filled with flowers, you make Me laugh, you defend Me, you promote Me,  you pave the way for Me when I come to your city, I want for virtually nothing and I know that I could call on many of you and you would be here in an instant if I needed you.  That is golden and My life is fuller and happier because of you.

I am truly rich – and I don’t mean in tender – I mean in relationships and experiences.  Thank you all for your participation and contribution to this fabulous thing called life.  I wish everyone a healthy and prosperous (and kinky) 2020.

Trials and Tribulations of a chastity slave – Installment #19

Sunday, 15 December 2019 11:59
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Installment #19 – To Be in Chastity or Not To Be in Chastity?  That is the question (to paraphrase William Shakespeare) – by slaveboy jaime

After many, many months of indefinite, mutually agreed upon chastity, i have ample experience to know what it feels like to be in chastity.

There are times where i treasure this state of service and sexual and physical enslavement to Mistress Ayn.  While in chastity there is a calmness to my life, a sense of certainty or routine.  It is a known good and this condition feels normal.

Yet, there is a growing frustration while in chastity, especially after a recent, albeit rare, command to edge and denial, or the even more rare permission to orgasm.  In addition, there is the frequent pinching or constriction and resulting discomfort when sitting in a chair, getting in or out of a car, tossing and turning in bed, or becoming aroused by something or someone – and these experiences occur frequently during the day and throughout the night.  They are a nearly constant reminder that i am Mistress Ayn’s chaste slaveboy.

The frustration or discomfort from being in chastity is replaced when out of chastity with new sensations.  On rare occasions Mistress Ayn permits the removal of the chastity cage so that i might comply with Her order for some sort of edging.  The edging is often for multiple, consecutive days and with a proscribed length of time for edging.  Yet, in most instances, there is denial awaiting the end of the edging time, then icing Her cock so that it fits back into Her chastity cage.  Rarely is there permission to orgasm, although occasionally a ruined orgasm is directed.  Admittedly, given permission to stroke feels very nice and is very intense.  i am quick to gain an erection and shortly thereafter am on the edge of an orgasm.  Then the truly intense frustration sets in as i am reminded of the command for orgasm denial, but with more time left to edge.

These experiences bring forth the question – Is it better to be IN chastity or OUT of chastity?  Thankfully, that is a question that does not deserve or require an answer for it is a rhetorical question.  The correct question is – How might i serve my Mistress, Mistress Ayn, my Beloved Keyholder?  If it is to be IN chastity for an indefinite time, that is my pleasure in service to Mistress Ayn.  If it is to be OUT of chastity for a period of frustrating edging and denial, that too is my pleasure in service to Mistress Ayn.  It is no longer up to me to make these kinds of decisions about my daily, sexual practices.  Mistress Ayn has assumed control of me as Her slave and my life is enriched because of Her guidance in my personal slave training.

Touring Washington DC December 9th – 11th

Monday, 04 November 2019 20:40
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Mistress Ayn - DominatrixGet ready DC because you will be the end cap of the year for Me.  My last tour just had to include seeing all My loyal boys in the Nation’s Capital.  Appointments are already being booked and the ads break next week, so book now or wait until next year.

For those that have not sessioned with Me, here are My interests:

  • Body Worship – Respectful feet, legs and ass
  • Bondage – from the light to the extreme
  • CBT (Cock and ball torment)
  • Corporal Punishment – bare hand, OTK, hairbrush, floggers, paddles, crops, canes, whips, etc.
  • Electro torture/stimulation (ErosTek)
  • Face sitting and smothering (clothed)
  • Feminization – from pantying to makeup and lingerie
  • Foot Fetish – including boot and shoe worship – I have an extensive shoe collection and requests in advance are entertained.
  • Humiliation and degradation
  • Medical Play – including naughty exams, urethral sounds, enema play, stretching, toy play
  • Nipple torture
  • Strap on Worship / Training
  • Tease and Denial
  • Toilet training – golden only
  • Trampling
  • Sensory deprivation/sensory overload
  • Wax play
  • Venus 2000 – tease and denial and forced O

Things I am NOT interested in are full toilet (hardsports), blood play, adult baby or intimate sexual contact.  Please note that I am NOT a findomme and do not participate in financial domination or blackmail scenarios.

Most any other fetish can be accommodated, but if you are looking for something special, ask now before the packing is done. I will be hosting in a suite in an upscale hotel convenient to the Metro. The space is ideal for domestic scenes and a variety of role plays. I will be bringing a vast assortment of BDSM equipment for CBT, corporal, medical play, bondage, etc – along with the Eros Tek and Venus 2000.

When traveling I conduct sessions daily from noon until 10pm. I prefer email contact and an application is required for subs I have not sessioned with previously. My schedule in DC always fills quickly and openings are at a premium. If we have not sessioned together before, a deposit will be required to book.

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Trials and Tribulations of a chastity slave – Installment #18

Monday, 28 October 2019 21:20
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FemDom MansionInstallment #18 – My Personal Slave Training Progress in Review

While most of my chaste slave training with Mistress Ayn is via emails, there were four very special weekends at the FemDom Mansion in the past 18 months.  There i subjected to Mistress Ayn, and other Mistresses and Goddesses of Her choosing, to advance my personal slave training.  At the end of each weekend, i knelt before the Mistresses and Goddesses who took charge of my training weekend and humbly requested that They sign my “personal slave training Certificate of Achievement.”

On the flight home i begin to reflect on my slave training experiences at the hands of these beautiful and talented Mistresses and Goddesses and construct a “Top 13” list of the most memorable or meaningful experiences that have advanced my personal slave training. Recently i reviewed my “Top 13” lists and discovered some patterns reflecting my progress as Mistress Ayn’s personal chaste slave.

  • Humiliation – in the basement dungeon as i was ordered to experience a gangbang, spitroasting, or sucking dildoes; or during the cocktail party where i am typically in full-drag feminization and sitting on the spiked tray, spanked, performing a burlesque dance, or displayed with saline-filled balls; or during the day as i am “waterboarded Goddess-style” (an outdoor showers with garden hose); or feminized (often looking “ridiculous”) for serving dinner;
  • Physical pain – markings from a whip or cane or flogger; electricity attached to inserted sounds; sitting on a spiked tray; multiple piercings with needles; and generally prohibited from using a safe word;
  • Feminization – in full drag for a burlesque dance, Halloween costume as Mistress Ayn’s mini-me, or as a cocktail waitress; or partially feminized as a maidservant for meals;
  • Anal play – birthday gangbang; strap-on sucking and pegging; spitroasted while on display in the dungeon; and,
  • Markings – from a rattan cane or whip or flogger; redness from a spanking; bearing Mistress Ayn’s and Goddess Samantha’s initials.

The level of humiliation, physical pain, feminization, anal play, and markings are all “former hard limits,” with the emphasis on “former” as i have advanced as a slave due to my training.  Not only have i accepted them as part of my new life as Mistress Ayn’s personal chaste slave due to Her expert training, but i am craving these experiences each time i submit to Her and Others for more training.  They seem to please Mistress Ayn and that is my ultimate goal. They have become a part of my life as Her slaveboy and i hope i can endure / embrace even more as my personal slave training progresses – but that is, as always, at Mistress Ayn’s discretion.

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