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Trials and Tribulations of a chastity slave – Installment #23

Wednesday, 29 April 2020 12:31
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Installment #23 – The Role of Fear in Our (Mistress Ayn-slaveboy) Relationship

In most relationships (as in life) fear is something that is desperately avoided.  Generally, fear is understood as a weak emotion that should be controlled.  Yet, i am learning in my relationship as Mistress Ayn’s slaveboy that fear is something that must be embraced.

In O/our relationship, my fear spawns from the reality that Mistress Ayn is completely in control of all things, especially what happens to me.  Even long distance, She dictates chastity release, panties wearing, nipple piercings, anal play, and so much more.  When in Her presence, She determines what i eat and drink, wear, behave, whom i serve, and so much more.  She decides everything and i simply surrender to Her control, although fear remains part of what i am feeling given the unknown and degree She pushes me to be a better slave.

In O/our relationship, my fear indicates that Mistress Ayn is about to expose me to something i had not experienced before or perhaps not even considered or wanted.  As a frequent masturbator, i never imagined wearing a chastity cage indefinitely.  As a traditional male, i did not consider becoming a pantie wearing submissive.  In my vanilla life, getting a piercing was not on my list of desires.  Yet, She knows what i need and will impose it upon Her slave despite my fear.

In O/our relationship, my fear signifies that i must turn to trust, as in trusting in my Mistress.  Trusting that: She will hurt me, but never harm me; She will push my limits, but never beyond what i can take; She will give another Mistress control over me, but has established ground rules with the Mistress that She knows well; and She will always be there for me as i face my fears.

This is my thinking that helps me learn to embrace my fear in O/our relationship and by doing so i have come to understand that a healthy amount of fear makes sense in O/our relationship and allows O/our relationship to grow and for me to trust Mistress Ayn even more with each new experience.  Embracing my fear as an essential element in O/our relationship has enabled me to build a strong commitment in trusting my Mistress and that is all that truly matters for me, Her slaveboy, in O/our relationship.

 

Your obedient and submissive slaveboy

Online domination – email/task packages

Saturday, 04 April 2020 20:25
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I love controlling My subjects – any way I can.  Many people do not have adequate privacy to do a phone or Skype session, so I have developed a special email task program to satisfy our need for D/s.

Email/task program – $150 per week or $450 per month

  • Daily check in with Me is required via email or text
  • 2 tasks per week with proof of completion requirement
  • Random check ins via email or text are probable
  • Access to My fan page on LoyalFans

Tasks are centered around our common interests and can include CBT instruction, Nipple Torture instruction, JOI, orgasm control, orgasm denial, cum play, anal training, cock sucking instruction, sissy dress up, exposure on Twitter (pre-negotiated), self administered punishments like paddling, face slaps, enemas, and pretty much anything else My kinky, devious mind can conjure.

I also enjoy feminization and slut training so you “gurls” that are looking for a Woman to take control have come to the right place.

Custom audio and video are also available.  If you can manage privacy for a call or Skype, by all means, let’s do it.

Supplemental:

Skype session – 30 minutes = $120

Phone session – 20 minutes = $60

Custom Audio – $125 up to 20 minutes in length

Custom FemDom POV Video – $250 up to 20 minutes in length

To discuss further, email Me at ayn@mistresayn.com

 

Let’s make it happen.

 

 

Trials and tribulations of a chastity slave – Installment #22

Monday, 24 February 2020 21:39
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Installment #21 – My favorite reply: “Yes! … What?” in my developing life as Mistress Ayn’s slaveboy

i often encounter challenging situations and quickly, say: “Yes,” but begin to realize i do not truly understand what i said Yes to, thus add: “What?”  Thankfully my “Yes … What?” responses to Mistress Ayn is based on developing trust and has resulted in amazing experiences as i grow as Mistress Ayn’s slaveboy.

In summer 2017, i arranged for two, two-hour BDSM sessions with Mistress Ayn, based on Her website.  W/we seemed like a good fit, thus the “Yes.”  But, i had no idea what i was getting myself into – giving up complete control to a new Mistress that was only a website persona.  When W/we met i accepted bondage, discipline, chastity between the sessions, and much more.  It was wonderful new path for me to travel.

After reading the FemDom Mansion website, i surrendered to a weekend with Mistress Ayn and the Ladies at the Fem Dom Mansion.  i said “Yes” but clearly had no idea what was in store for me.  Rather than a few hours of submission, 48 continuous hours as a slave was incredible and life changing.  Now understanding the “What?”, i committed to serve at the Mansion again and have three more times with more weekends planned.

After the first weekend and as O/our relationship deepened, i asked Mistress Ayn to be my Keyholder, but did not know what i was getting into at the time, thus another “Yes … What?” experience.  She agreed to “try it out for two weeks.”  That was a year ago and She has not mentioned any ending date, nor have i asked.  “Indefinite” chastity appears to be Her preference.  i had no idea where my “Yes” would take me; i am delighted where it has.

Indefinite chastity had led to pantie wearing, nipple piercing, and long distance anal play.  With each new opportunity, i am saying “Yes!” and then learning “what” this truly means.  Never any regrets and it is getting easier to say “Yes” to my Mistress.

She instructed me to begin a Twitter account.  i have never been this “public” with my submissiveness or my experiences with Mistress Ayn, but again said “Yes” and then “What?”.  It was incredible to open up to hundreds of people who are “following” me and Mistress Ayn often re-tweets my posts to Her 10,000 followers.  i have submitted selfies and shared much about my life as Mistress Ayn’s slaveboy.

i suppose others might find my approach to be questionable, risky, or simply poor judgment, but my “Yes! … What?” seems to work for me as Mistress Ayn’s slaveboy.  i cannot wait for the next question posed and am ready with my response.

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Interview with Domme Addiction – FemDom Mansion

Sunday, 02 February 2020 19:50
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I was recently interviewed by slaveboysmith of Domme Addiction about the evolution of FemDom Mansion, the luxury BDSM retreat that offers immersive experiences to submissives and sissies that are more than mere “sessions”.

slaveboysmith: Today at DommeAddiction finds this slaveboy kneeling in the presence of the beautiful and alluring Mistress Ayn, and preparing to share the story of the amazing Femdom Mansion she has created along with several other Dommes. Welcome to DA, Mistress, and my only regret is that we aren’t actually in Femdom Mansion for this interview!

Mistress Ayn: Hello slaveboysmith. I wish you were here as well. FemDom Mansion is a special place for sure and I appreciate you giving me the opportunity to share some information about it with your readers.

sbs: It would be my privilege to be kneeling before you in Femdom Mansion asking you all about it beautiful Mistress. Let me begin by asking you to share a little about what exactly Femdom Mansion is, and how it distinguishes itself from the array of other dungeon/playspaces that are out there?

MA: For starters, FemDom Mansion is a venue that accommodates one sub at a time which is extremely unique. People sometimes incorrectly think that our events are open for multiple subs, probably because they see multiple Mistresses in attendance and multiple sub events are the norm, but that is not the case. Each event is designed solely around the submissive that books it. They can choose to serve only one Mistress or many. Their interests drive the activities, so each event is unique and a great deal of planning goes into each one. The Mansion is also a private residence so it has all the luxuries and comforts one would expect from such a property – with one big addition, a 2000 square foot BDSM Dungeon. This gives us the best of both worlds, the luxury of an prestigious home for domestic scenes and access to an exceptionally well equipped Dungeon. I don’t know of any other property that offers both at this high a level.

sbs: It’s almost incomprehensible to think of a space where one might serve multiple Mistresses over the span of time spent there. Obviously you are one of the Dommes that a submissive might serve at Femdom Mansion, but you mention multiple Mistresses. Are there other Mistresses that a submissive might choose from, or do they arrange to book Femdom Mansion with a Mistress they already serve?

MA: As the Proprietress I am responsible for the space and what happens within it, so all events include me, whether I am actually active or not. The website includes a list of local Mistresses that I have worked with for years at Atlanta Dungeon and trust. A sub can choose any of those Mistresses listed to be part of their event. We also have two Switches to make things more interesting. That being said, we recently had Mistress Troy of NYC appear as a guest Mistress for two events at the request of the sub. Again, Mistress Troy is a known and trusted Mistress and we had sessioned together before so I had no qualms including her. I am certainly open to a sub attending with his Mistress but it would need to be someone I knew and trusted. These events are a minimum of 24 hours, costly and elaborate to produce so I want to be sure that we are all a good fit so the experience is one that brings us all joy.

sbs: The more I hear about Femdom Mansion the more it becomes etched onto my “bucket list” as a submissive. I can only imagine the cost of a life-changing experience like this and know that it might not be for everyone. Can you give our readers a sense of the type of tax bracket we’re talking about for the opportunity to experience heaven on earth like this Mistress?

For the answer to this and to read the entire interview, visit Domme Addition.

 

Review of an overnight session

Monday, 27 January 2020 16:58
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Overnight sessions are among My favorite things.  There is no clock or time pressures. The city quietens down and the Dungeon envelops you. In most sessions, even long ones, you have to be concerned with session pacing.   As the top, I don’t want to wear My bottom out prematurely or have the session build too quickly or too slowly and the end is a preset time that has to be honored.  With overnights it’s different.  They usually start with a leisurely dinner, then it’s back to the Dungeon to play – and play and play.  If we get tired, we rest.  If I want to crank it up, I do.  Eventually things naturally wind down and we get a few hours sleep, but it is on My terms, not the clock’s.

Below are some excerpts of a review of a recent overnight session:

“It is absolutely unbelievable to me how quickly the time flew by that night! In what felt like only 2-3 hours of play at the most, nearly 7 hours had gone by! The rest of the world may have continued to buzz by outside the door at its monotonous, tedious pace, but my time inside the dungeon while under the control of Mistress Ayn flashed by in the blink of an eye.

In all honesty, I don’t know that I’ve ever felt more alive than I did that night. I cannot put into words the gamut of emotional, physical and physiological responses that I was experiencing throughout my time with Mistress Ayn. She took me to the edge and back numerous times …. so much so that I had to actually remind myself to breathe on multiple occasions. It was an experience that I will cherish and remember for a lifetime and one that makes me want to get back and see her again as soon as possible. If you’ve ever been on the fence or thought about an overnight session with her, do yourself a favor and make it happen.”

The full review can be read on The Buzz.

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