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Trials and tribulations of a chastity slave – #31

 

Installment 31 – When a submissive is asked by his Mistress: “What do you think?” – by slaveboy.

In the heat of an intense tease and denial session, Mistress Ayn asked me: “Do you want to cum, slaveboy?”  The obvious, immediate, physically induced, sexually frustrated answer is: “Yes, please, Mistress, please let me cum.”  Yet, deep down inside, at the core of my submissive nature, there is a desire for denial, to be kept from an orgasm by my dominant Mistress.  i crave to be stopped just short of an orgasm and ordered to be locked back into Her chastity cage.

This moment caused me to reflect later – “should a submissive be asked what s/he thinks or wants?”  i am less comfortable with that task for two reasons.

First, as a submissive i often decide incorrectly or too tentatively.  i did not want to be placed in indefinite chastity (i wanted to try chastity but not necessarily indefinitely), or to have my nipples pierced, or be dressed in drag by Mistress Ayn and Her friends, or be chained in the dungeon overnight, or to eat from a dog bowl, or be subjected to painful discipline from a whip or cane, and so many, many more things.  Mistress Ayn jokes about my “hard limit” list, which has disappeared as i have given up control to Mistress Ayn.  These experiences are some of the very best things i have endured, as Mistress Ayn’s owned slaveboy and i treasure them.  When i let go, gave up control, stopped thinking for myself and trusted Mistress Ayn, things became so much better in my life.

Second, as a submissive it is unnatural for me to think – that is a form of control.  i am a slave, Mistress Ayn is my owner.  Her role is to control me, my role is to obey Her.  She uses me for Her pleasure, my primary responsibility is to please Her.  Thinking or exerting any sort of control into O/our relationship often ends up with me in trouble.  Thinking is not what She needs from me nor what i am particularly good at as Her slave.  Listening to my Mistress and fulfilling Her commands is my role as Her owned slaveboy.  Over time, as i become more obedient and sensitive to Her wishes, i become a better owned and chaste slaveboy and Mistress Ayn is pleased with me.

However, a Mistress should ask Her slave anything She wants.  She does not and likely will not do what the slave asks for, but She may be interested in knowing what the slave is thinking.  And, i have learned that the best response is – Whatever pleases you, Mistress Ayn.  That truly has become what i am thinking and what i want the most.

Collaring slaves

Collaring a submissive is something I have always been resistant to, for several reasons.  I am a believer in long term relationships and I take commitment very seriously.  The act of collaring, to Me, is not a whim.  On the contrary it is much like a marriage.  I become responsible for the sub and everything the sub does is now a reflection on Me.  That’s heavy stuff.

The pandemic has been difficult in many ways but it has made Me reevaluate the things that are important to Me.  When times are difficult you learn who you can really depend on  and it became clear to Me that I have some spectacular subs.  Among those a few really stand out because of their long time exclusive devotion, the things they do to go the extra mile, their dependability, special skills or a combination of all of the above.  But mainly I realized there were a few subs that I knew I could really depend on.  If I were stranded in another state or hurt on the side of the road, they would move heaven and earth to rescue Me.  They would be family.

Because of this I decided to collar 3 additional subs this year and all three are now members of My kinky family.  Prior to this I had only the one collared sub, aka slave jaime, Ayn’s slaveboy.  It was a touchy subject to inform slaveboy he now had “brothers” but he accepted the news well.  I have encouraged My collared subs to get to know each other and I think that has only strengthened their bond.

The subs:

joe – My joe has served Me over a decade.  He has been the rock I needed during the rehabbing of two Dungeons.  He is the guy you call when a crisis occurs and he is always there ready to help.   In reality I should have collared joe years ago, so although he is not My first collared sub, I do consider him the alpha sub.

Ayn’s pet aka paddles – My pet has also served Me for at least a decade.  He has been loyal and fun but more recently he has become even more.  He is the one that volunteers sweat labor when he sees something needing done.  He has made Dungeon furniture, cleaned carpets, done yard work, filmed, you name it.   He has never refused a thing I asked.

Ayn’s toy – My toy was an easy decision but for different reasons.  During the pandemic he offered his support in important ways.  I could tell anytime he was able to help, he felt fulfilled by it in a way beyond how a typical person might feel.   It’s as if service completes him and I don’t know if I have ever met a soul quite like him.  He wormed his way into My heart in a comparatively short period of time, but I think he is here to stay.

These men have made a vow to serve and honor Me and I made a vow to protect and support them and be worthy of their service.  I hope we continue to make each other proud.  Yes, that is some heavy stuff.

A 48 hour weekend at FemDom Mansion

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We managed to pull off another safe yet fantastic weekend at FemDom Mansion in Atlanta.  The guest list was shorter than usual but the event was long on FemDom fun.  It also provided some great opportunities for My slaveboy’s continued training on his 8th visit.

As a special “surprise” we had Goddess B fly in from DC.  When she arrived on Saturday, slaveboy was completely shocked.  He had been trying to guess what the surprise would be and when he saw her walk in, the look on his face was priceless.  All the ladies had a much needed weekend of pampering and fun.  It was definitely a win win weekend.

As is tradition, slaveboy has written his top 15 experiences (upped from 13) and they have been posted on the FemDom Mansion site.

See the full review on Domina.ms/reviews or the write up and photo gallery at FemDom Mansion.

 

 

 

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Chronicles of a chastity slave – pain and the sissy

Installment #28 – On Becoming a Pain, Anal and Sissy Slut – by slaveboy

The transformation from being a bondage slut to becoming a pain, anal and sissy slut has been gradual but steady under the skilled hands of Mistress Ayn.  A slut = a person with a seemingly insatiable but often undiscerning desire to do or have something specified (Dictionary.com).  It is what i am becoming and i love it.  Each area was once a limit yet is now welcomed and desired.

Pain Slut – Initially i would avoid any serious pain, accepting only light spankings.  Then was introduced to serious flogging and loved it; then came whipping and caning and i cannot get enough now.  i have learned to “welcome and embrace” the pain, rather than fight it, which means i can take more.  i have had back-to-back days of whipping and had body orgasms from the pain.  Afterwards i want to see the marks and am sad when they dissipate.  Still a long way to go but definitely on the journey to becoming a pain slut.

Anal Slut – My hard limit was “no anal,” then i tried it and realized that i craved it, badly.  Dildo penetration is amazing as Mistress Ayn controls me, whether from behind on a bondage bench or facing me when in a sling.  Multiple Mistresses gang banging me is intense.  Being spitroasted is both humiliating and exciting.  When Mistress Ultra Violet was concerned that Her dildo was too thick, i was silently wishing, “please try it.”  She did, it was not, and it was incredible.

Sissy Slut – Feminization was “not my thing” and is now what i am looking forward to during each slave training session.  Mistress Ayn’s smile after applying my makeup, other Mistresses laughing as They dress me, the feel of a nightie when in bed at hotel between slave training sessions, pictures of me as the blushing bride at my collaring ceremony dressed in white, or looking so humiliated as slave “nana” to serve Mistresses dinner.  i am so comfortable, it feels so natural while sissified.

Most importantly, becoming a pain, anal and sissy slut is what Mistress Ayn wants for me as Her slaveboy and that is more than enough for me.

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