In the continuation of the Trials and Tribulations of a chastity slave chronicles, slaveboy reminisces about orgasms . . .

The three-year anniversary of my “indefinite” chastity caused me to reflect on a fading memory — orgasms.  Before chastity, i orgasmed when i felt the urge – about twice or thrice a week. i really do not remember those days, (as You like to say Mistress Ayn: “Mission Accomplished!”).  Then, as Your chaste slaveboy, i would look forward to the days whenever You would permit an orgasm.

Recently things have changed – orgasms are permitted whenever You wish to have them happen and under Your control (“Mission Accomplished!”).  And, a new twist – they rarely involve my stroking to a satisfying orgasm.  Your plan seems to have me orgasm JUST often enough for me to remember what You have taken away from me (“Mission Accomplished!”).  Orgasms are now just another one of Your many ways to control me, sometimes reward me, and even sometimes they are used to punish (“Mission Accomplished!”).

There is no pattern, for that would allow me to anticipate.  At the end of 2020, You had me orgasm at the stroke of the new year. The next year You casually signed off in Your last email, informing me that “I am off until Monday.”  No orgasm to end the year, keeping me unbalanced and submissive (“Mission Accomplished!”).

In 2019 and 2020, i was permitted “release” 19 times and 18 times, respectively.  For 2021, that number plummeted to 12 – a 35% drop.  i see where this is going: fewer releases, farther and farther apart, making it harder to remember orgasms, and You exerting more control (“Mission Accomplished!”).

And a new element, merely 12 releases, yet only FIVE “real orgasms,” when i was allowed to touch Your cock and bring myself to a satisfying orgasm.  THREE times a ruined orgasm, stroking but stopping just short of a satisfying release. THREE times a forced orgasm – release but no physical touch Your cock, but using a vibrator.  And, ONCE a forced, ruined orgasm – no physical touching and stopping before ejaculation.  You are a creative Mistress and apparently One with a plan – fewer releases and even fewer the old-fashion way = jerking off to ejaculation (“Mission Accomplished!”).

Is there a lesson here?  Yes.  You are in control, it is not about me, my needs, or my pleasure (“Mission Accomplished”). It is about Your pleasure.  My less frequent releases seem to please You, with new twists and turns, and less satisfaction.  i gladly embraced this new training.  You have trained me well, oh wise Mistress.  – slaveboy jaime