Installment #17 – Mistress Ayn “Pushes” Me – by slaveboy
Reflecting on months as Mistress Ayn’s chaste slaveboy, there are many things i have experienced that i have desired, often in moderation: chastity, bondage and discipline, servitude, tease and denial, and more. Yet, Mistress Ayn also knows how to “push” my limits for the things i desire and to introduce me to things i dislike or at least thought i did not want.
i enjoy chastity and Mistress Ayn being my Keyholder … but … She “pushes” me as i have been controlled and restricted from freely touching, masturbating or orgasming for eight months … with no end in sight. Mistress Ayn loves introducing me to “indefinite chastity.” There is more. At my last weekend at the FemDom Mansion, i was secured to the bondage bench expecting some discipline – for my birthday … what i received were eight strikes with a rattan cane. OMG, that was intense and, again, my limit for pain tolerance was “pushed,” never beyond what i could take but much more than what i thought i could handle.
As the FemDom Mansion Houseboy, i was “pushed” into many things i thought i would dislike and did not asked for, if that was an option: sissification, public humiliation, gangbang as a birthday gift, no whining or sassing, and more. Mistresses at the Mansion now joke about many of my “hard limits.” For instance, i was taken to a public shopping mall by a Mistress and a Goddess and ordered to walk around with Them. W/we shopped for sissy bling for me and sexy outfits for them. i was ordered to carry my Goddess’ purse – “pushing” me beyond what i thought i wanted. At the Mansion, Mistress Ayn created a display board to record the times i sassed a Mistress during the weekend and punishments were doled out based on this recorded number – a number much higher than i thought i could possibly take. This “pushed” me to think about what i was about to say and be more respectful at all times of Mistresses. i was subjected to much more as will be reported in Mistress Ayn’s blog and Twitter.
The closing thought – regardless of whether i ask for something or not, Mistress Ayn knows how to train me to accept whatever She desires for me to experience and to enhance my training as a submissive slaveboy. i am so appreciative of this opportunity to serve in this way.
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