Category Archives: Miscellaneous Musings

Tribute Etiquette

How to present your tribute:

  1. Have it ready – counting out your tribute in front of Me is uncouth. Whether intended or not, I see it as a passive aggressive move to remind Me that you are paying and therefore in control. It’s not the best way to start your session.
  1. Have it in a plain, unsealed envelope. Even if you have been seeing Me for years, I may count the tribute in private before we start.  Especially if it’s a double or the tribute deviates from our norm.  I prefer not to have to rip the envelope open to do this check.
  1. Don’t write anything on the envelope. I would prefer not to have a bunch of envelopes with “Mistress Ayn” floating around out there – either in your pocket or the trash.  We all know who it is for.
  1. Just lay it down within eyesight upon entry. Don’t hand it to Me.  Most of Us were taught not to touch the tribute.  It’s a legal thing and I don’t know if it  holds water or not, but I have always done it this way and it just feels better to Me.  Somehow it’s less transactional and starts everything off right.

I can’t speak for all Dommes but this is how I like to receive My tribute.  If in doubt, ask.  It is your first live interaction with a Mistress, so get it right and start things off positively.

 

Trials and tribulations of a chastity slave – Installment #13

 Installment # 13 – Chastity “Cuckolding”

As many know, typically, a cuckold is when a male changes his role from sexual partner to chaste submissive and the Female takes on other sexual partners.  The male is no longer the alpha and there may be many other males in the Female’s life, as it should be.  While i have never been more than a submissive to Mistress Ayn, i did realize the other day that i am a “chaste cuckold” of sorts. 

i knew that Mistress Ayn had other males in Her life – some for Her sexual pleasure and others as submissives to serve Her in a variety of roles, as well as some female submissives.  The other day it became clear to me that She also has other slaves who are ordered into chastity and this caused me to think – how do i respond to this new understanding of my role?  i am only one of many submissives under Mistress Ayn’s control as a chaste slave.  My role as Her chaste slave is diminished further by not being the only chaste slave serving Her.  What does this mean for me?

This revelation caused me to renew my commitment in being or becoming Mistress Ayn’s “treasured” submissive.  i want to be Her “best” submissive slave. i want to find ways to please Her, even when W/we are not together.  Whether it is being completely obedient to Her orders for continuous chastity, edging and denial for specific periods of time, wearing panties, or other commands, i want to please Her as best i can.  i want to please Her by never complaining about being in continuous chastity or prohibited from cage release, stroking, or orgasming.  i want to please Her by purchasing gifts for special occasions and for no reason at all.  i want to try to be physically available to Her as often as possible and, when in Her presence, to be completely obedient to Her and Her guests at the FemDom Mansion and thus please Her.

The realization that i am Mistress Ayn’s “chaste cuckold” motivates me to be Her “best” chaste slave and affirms my resolve of being completely obedient to Mistress Ayn.

It was like being in a FemDom video

Usually I complain that subs watch way too many FemDom videos and then expect a session to be like what they watch.  Often what’s depicted in clips is not at all what a real session is like.  However, a recent submissive showed Me that sometimes expectations are realized and even exceeded.

 

In his words:

 

As someone who has watched way more femdom videos than I’ll ever admit to, I have to say that you nailed so many of the things that get me excited, I felt like I was in one of those videos.
 
Things like:
– telling me to take it when whipping me
– spitting on the strap-on
– the way you put your glove in my mouth to make me eat my gunk
– the way you just reached over and stretched me a little further
– your comments about no one knowing I was there, and what you could do with me
– telling me that you didn’t care if I came or not, that wasn’t going to change you did to me
– the venus 2000
– more …
 
You are so incredible at what you do.
 
And I saw your tweet about denying a slave, sending him home to prime the pump (so to speak), all the while waiting a week to face you and Mistress Harley Quinn.  Damn, if I’m ever back in Atlanta I wanted to be treated like that.
 
I’m very grateful I have been able to experience you amazing talent.

New Sardax portrait comission.

As a special birthday present a long time DC sub comissioned a portrait from the world famous FemDom artist, Sardax.  His idea was to capture some of our play and since he is a RHT stocking fetishist it was only natural for My feet to be covered only in stockings.  Breath play and CBT are also among our favorite activities and we have literally spent hours over the past few years in a very similar position as the one depicted.  It will have a special place in My heart and in My home.

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The art of Sardax:

Trials and tribulations of a chastity slave.  Installment #1

The trials and tribulations of a chastity slave.  Installment #1 by slave boy jaime.

For many years i served Mistresses when i traveled for business in a two-hour session of domination, humiliation and mild discipline.  In August 2017, while in Atlanta, Mistress Ayn agreed to “bookend sessions,” where i would serve Her the day i arrived and again the day before i left.  W/we shared mutual BDSM interests, She worked out of the well-equipped Atlanta Dungeon, She had the experience to control an experienced sub, and She was very attractive – a “perfect storm.”

W/we clearly had a strong Mistress-slave connection and only a few weeks later i was craving to serve Mistress Ayn again.  i saw the FemDom Mansion website and the opportunity to submit to Mistress Ayn and the Ladies of the Mansion for a full weekend.  This was one of my “bucket list” fantasies. In March 2018 i submitted to Mistress Ayn for the weekend, which included an abduction fantasy, lots of discipline, humiliation as a maid, and so much more, as chronicled in Mistress Ayn’s blog.  i repeated this weekend of service in October 2018 with even more control, humiliation, and discipline.

Yet, only one month later i was again pining for Mistress Ayn’s dominating control.  Coordinated Skype online training was logistical impossible but W/we could communicate by email  so i asked Mistress Ayn if She was interested in being my keyholder.  i had self-caged my cock but never for more than a week.  Initially, She was not interested, especially since W/we were separated by 700 miles.

i persevered and soon She came to believe that She could trust me and i would be obedient to Her commands even though i would be holding the key as the Holy Trainer device required release for daily maintenance.  i proposed a fee for this service, Mistress Ayn doubled it, and i had my first keyholder.

That brings U/us to today – i am Mistress Ayn’s chaste slave with no scheduled releases, only allowed out of chastity upon Mistress Ayn’s orders, and then to act only as She commands.  What has Mistress Ayn demanded from me as Her chaste slave?  Well, that is for Chronicle installment #2 in Her blog.

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