Installment #12 – The submissive side overcoming the dominant side
Since i was a teen-ager i have been dominant. i have been in control of every romantic relationship, led nearly every organization i was a member, and professionally am entrusted with leading others. i see myself as a servant leader in my professional life – always seeking to care for and help others but also always the leader, taking charge, being in control. Now focusing on my submissive side, Mistress Ayn is seeking to enable that aspect of my personality to emerge – it is quite a challenge.
When in Her presence for slave training, i find myself resisting letting go of my dominant side. i try to control the situation, often verbally as i do in my vanilla life. It is a hard adjustment to not take the initiative, not to try to plan activities or actions in my submissive life, and generally to refrain from being the center of attention among dominant Women. This struggle comes out in my all-too-frequent comments, often sarcastic and thus sassing my Mistress. It comes out in my wanting to orchestra how things will occur, which is often seen in my constant planning and strategizing my time and behavior for an upcoming slave training session.
As a submissive, a true slave to my Mistress, i need to learn how to let go and trust Mistress Ayn. After decades of grabbing control and holding on, this is indeed a major challenge. i am confident i have surrendered myself and committed myself to the right Mistress.
As my Keyholder, she has grabbed control – literately and figuratively – of Her (now) cock and balls. She decides if i get a release and how it happens. i still find myself wanting to try to manipulate Her into some command, but thankfully She is too strong and wise to fall for those tricks.
As my Alpha Mistress and trainer, i want to suggest what should happen in a session, who might be there, and other controlling suggestions. Again, She is kind but firm in not relinquishing Her control of my training. i am experiencing new things, things i never would have “allowed” or even thought of, and these are some of the best experiences and lessons learned as i find my submissive self as Mistress Ayn’s chaste slave.
The stars have aligned and the next two weeks finds My favorite Dungeon Sisters and Me all in town at the same time. Let’s take advantage of this rare happening and indulge in some double sessions – or even triples or quads if you can handle it.
Sessions are available with Mistress Ultra Violet, Goddess Samantha and Mistress Harley Quinn. All three are super hot and very skilled so you can’t lose on this deal. Session availability begins June 4th through June 18th. between the hours of 2pm and 8pm. Tribute for doubles are $400 per hour. Triples are $600 per hour.
Reply to this email to inquire about availability. An application and a deposit are required to book.
My main website: www.MistressAyn.com
Installment #11 – Six months in chastity, omg. – by slave boy
Not that long ago i counted my time in chastity in days, then weeks, and thought to myself, “Wouldn’t it be something if i was in chastity for months?” Now, after six months in chastity, i reflect.
The “agreement” with Mistress Ayn to be my Keyholder, and i Her chaste slave, was one of mutual consent. It was understood that either of U/us could opt out at any time. Yet, six months later i cannot imagine asking for release from serving as Mistress Ayn’s chaste slave. It is a “normal” aspect of my life.
Being Her chaste slave is my first thought in the morning, as the snug chastity cage reminds me. This normalcy invades my morning routine with daily maintenance of the Holy Trainer cage. Throughout the day i am reminded of Her control over Her cock and balls as the cage rubs or slightly pinches when i enter a car or take a seat, or countless other normal, daily activities. And, it is my last thought at night as i feel Her cage against my leg when attempting to sleep.
It is nearly unimaginable to me that i would have a Keyholder that lives over 700 miles away. i only see Mistress Ayn during three weekends a year as the house boy at the FemDom Mansion where i serve Her and Her guests as a sissy maid, or as a BDSM submissive, or as a toy for Their amusement, or many other creative situations that Mistress Ayn artfully conjures during my stay. When at home, i religiously check my email hoping to receive a command from my Keyholder, despite it involving something frustrating, or embarrassing, or subjecting me to Her devious control.
Mistress Ayn seems interested in continuing as my Keyholder. She randomly sends emails with orders for me to remove Her cage and perform various activities – mostly to tease, edge and deny Her cock, or sometimes to edge to a ruined orgasm, and very infrequently to edge to orgasm. And, always to immediately return Her cock to Her chastity cage.
W/we seem to be comfortable in this “relationship,” which She often describes as “indefinite,” as in indefinite chastity. W/we seem to be in a mutually rewarding relationship, Mistress Ayn as my trainer and Keyholder and me as Her submissive, chaste slave. And, for now, that seems to be the way W/we want it to be.
Ready or not DC, here I come . . . I will be invading your space and your mind June 24th – 27th. My schedule is usually full well before I arrive, so book now to secure My attention.
UPDATE: June 24th – 26th is fully booked so I have extended this trip to include June 27th. Session times are only available for June 27th so book now while you can.
For those that have not sessioned with Me, here are My interests:
Things I am NOT interested in are full toilet (hardsports), blood play, adult baby or intimate sexual contact.
Most any other fetish can be accommodated, but if you are looking for something special, ask now before the packing is done. I will be hosting in a suite in an upscale hotel convenient to the Metro. The space is ideal for domestic scenes and a variety of role plays. I will be bringing a vast assortment of BDSM equipment for CBT, corporal, medical play, bondage, etc – along with the Eros Tek and Venus 2000.
When traveling I conduct sessions daily from noon until 10pm. I prefer email contact and an application is required for subs I have not sessioned with previously. My schedule in DC always fills quickly and openings are at a premium. If we have not sessioned together before, a deposit will be required to book.
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Reviews from DC sessions:
“The first time I actually met and sessioned with Mistress Ayn was in Washington DC rather than Atlanta and it was after a good year of talking back and forth online on various platforms about all kinds of D/s philosophies. The 5 star hotel she was staying at required a room key to get upstairs so she came down to the lobby to get me and was just stunning as she greeted me with a hug. She was wearing this amazing red dress and looked more like a woman who should be going to a fine dinner before the opera (now that is real torture) than what I normally associate with a Domme.” – Read Full Review on The Mistress Review
“It is easy to be intimidated by Mistress Ayn if you are a vanilla couple looking for some extra fun. Her website is impressive and features all kinds of devices that look scary to the uninitiated. But do not let that deter you. For a couple looking to explore a new experience she is the perfect Mistress. She puts you immediately at ease and is willing to listen and explore your ideas.” – Read Full Review on The Mistress Review.
“If she so desired, Mistress Ayn could spit roast you just by herself. I think I would describe this as Wicked and Wild. Her imagination is unlimited.” – Read Full Review on Max Fisch’s The Hang.
“Each time we visit with her, the intensity level seems to increase. I can’t wait to see what she has planned next time. Her mind is truly devious and diabolical.” – Read Full Review on Max Fisch’s The Hang.
“She creates quite a precious moment based on what you share with Her. Time with Her is not simulated, and Mistress Ayn is in total control the moment you encounter Her presence, yet you will feel quite comfortable as if it is entirely natural to serve Her.” – Read Full Review on Max Fisch’s The Hang.
“This was my first session with Mistress Ayn and her insight and skills enabled her to push all my buttons. I am not a newbie but I feel re-energized by Mistress Ayn. She is both beautiful and sensual but perhaps her best asset is her ability to create a fantastic mind fuck. If you have the opportunity, I highly recommend you book time with her.” Read Full Review on Max Fisch’s The Hang.
No and you shouldn’t either.
I seldom wear perfume outside the Dungeon and I never wear it in session. There are two primary reasons for that: 1. I believe in the power of scent and because of that I want you to smell Me – not a chemical. 2. Perfumes and colognes transfer and I don’t want My clients going home smelling of perfume for obvious reasons.
It is greatly appreciated if you don’t wear scents either. I like to get close to My submissives – invading your personal space. Your cologne might smell absolutely lovely but I don’t want it to transfer to onto Me so that I (and others) end up smelling it all day. So, please do us all a favor and skip the cologne and strong aftershave on the day you go to see your Domme. I promise to do the same.