Category Archives: Miscellaneous Musings

Reflecting – 2019

Wednesday, 01 January 2020 09:43
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This is the time of year I like to reflect and look back on all the things I am grateful for, not only in the previous year, but in life in general.  First and foremost I am healthy and that is huge.  This was a year when many pro Dommes were lost and it provided a heavy dose of reality.  Life is short.  Even the strongest can fall.  Live life to its fullest every day and every way that you can.

In many ways 2019 was an extraordinary year.  FemDom Mansion continued to grow in public awareness and for the first year (now in year 4) we had events for submissives that were not in My direct sphere.  It was exciting to have a sub fly from the UAE just to partake in a long held fantasy and it was even more exciting to be the one that enabled his fantasies to come to life.  The Mansion also saw the collaring of slave boy jaime and dealt with the serious issue of gender identity with on new client.  All of these events were joyous and we look forward to more in 2020.

This is also the time when I start to think of individual clients and the importance they have in My life.  Yes, I do care for many of you – very much – and am grateful to have you in My life.  You keep My house filled with flowers, you make Me laugh, you defend Me, you promote Me,  you pave the way for Me when I come to your city, I want for virtually nothing and I know that I could call on many of you and you would be here in an instant if I needed you.  That is golden and My life is fuller and happier because of you.

I am truly rich – and I don’t mean in tender – I mean in relationships and experiences.  Thank you all for your participation and contribution to this fabulous thing called life.  I wish everyone a healthy and prosperous (and kinky) 2020.

Tribute Etiquette

Wednesday, 28 August 2019 11:55
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How to present your tribute:

  1. Have it ready – counting out your tribute in front of Me is uncouth. Whether intended or not, I see it as a passive aggressive move to remind Me that you are paying and therefore in control. It’s not the best way to start your session.
  1. Have it in a plain, unsealed envelope. Even if you have been seeing Me for years, I may count the tribute in private before we start.  Especially if it’s a double or the tribute deviates from our norm.  I prefer not to have to rip the envelope open to do this check.
  1. Don’t write anything on the envelope. I would prefer not to have a bunch of envelopes with “Mistress Ayn” floating around out there – either in your pocket or the trash.  We all know who it is for.
  1. Just lay it down within eyesight upon entry. Don’t hand it to Me.  Most of Us were taught not to touch the tribute.  It’s a legal thing and I don’t know if it  holds water or not, but I have always done it this way and it just feels better to Me.  Somehow it’s less transactional and starts everything off right.

I can’t speak for all Dommes but this is how I like to receive My tribute.  If in doubt, ask.  It is your first live interaction with a Mistress, so get it right and start things off positively.

 

Trials and tribulations of a chastity slave – Installment #13

Tuesday, 02 July 2019 01:37
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 Installment # 13 – Chastity “Cuckolding”

As many know, typically, a cuckold is when a male changes his role from sexual partner to chaste submissive and the Female takes on other sexual partners.  The male is no longer the alpha and there may be many other males in the Female’s life, as it should be.  While i have never been more than a submissive to Mistress Ayn, i did realize the other day that i am a “chaste cuckold” of sorts. 

i knew that Mistress Ayn had other males in Her life – some for Her sexual pleasure and others as submissives to serve Her in a variety of roles, as well as some female submissives.  The other day it became clear to me that She also has other slaves who are ordered into chastity and this caused me to think – how do i respond to this new understanding of my role?  i am only one of many submissives under Mistress Ayn’s control as a chaste slave.  My role as Her chaste slave is diminished further by not being the only chaste slave serving Her.  What does this mean for me?

This revelation caused me to renew my commitment in being or becoming Mistress Ayn’s “treasured” submissive.  i want to be Her “best” submissive slave. i want to find ways to please Her, even when W/we are not together.  Whether it is being completely obedient to Her orders for continuous chastity, edging and denial for specific periods of time, wearing panties, or other commands, i want to please Her as best i can.  i want to please Her by never complaining about being in continuous chastity or prohibited from cage release, stroking, or orgasming.  i want to please Her by purchasing gifts for special occasions and for no reason at all.  i want to try to be physically available to Her as often as possible and, when in Her presence, to be completely obedient to Her and Her guests at the FemDom Mansion and thus please Her.

The realization that i am Mistress Ayn’s “chaste cuckold” motivates me to be Her “best” chaste slave and affirms my resolve of being completely obedient to Mistress Ayn.

It was like being in a FemDom video

Monday, 17 June 2019 23:56
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Usually I complain that subs watch way too many FemDom videos and then expect a session to be like what they watch.  Often what’s depicted in clips is not at all what a real session is like.  However, a recent submissive showed Me that sometimes expectations are realized and even exceeded.

 

In his words:

 

As someone who has watched way more femdom videos than I’ll ever admit to, I have to say that you nailed so many of the things that get me excited, I felt like I was in one of those videos.
 
Things like:
– telling me to take it when whipping me
– spitting on the strap-on
– the way you put your glove in my mouth to make me eat my gunk
– the way you just reached over and stretched me a little further
– your comments about no one knowing I was there, and what you could do with me
– telling me that you didn’t care if I came or not, that wasn’t going to change you did to me
– the venus 2000
– more …
 
You are so incredible at what you do.
 
And I saw your tweet about denying a slave, sending him home to prime the pump (so to speak), all the while waiting a week to face you and Mistress Harley Quinn.  Damn, if I’m ever back in Atlanta I wanted to be treated like that.
 
I’m very grateful I have been able to experience you amazing talent.

New Sardax portrait comission.

Tuesday, 14 May 2019 14:48
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As a special birthday present a long time DC sub comissioned a portrait from the world famous FemDom artist, Sardax.  His idea was to capture some of our play and since he is a RHT stocking fetishist it was only natural for My feet to be covered only in stockings.  Breath play and CBT are also among our favorite activities and we have literally spent hours over the past few years in a very similar position as the one depicted.  It will have a special place in My heart and in My home.

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The art of Sardax:
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