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FAQs about Gender Play

What is the difference between a crossdresser and a sissy?

Gender play raises a lot of questions and people often get stuck on the labels.  In general, crossdressing is more of a positive transformation from male to female, experiencing all the wonderful female energy that goes with being pretty and pursued.  Sissy play is more about humiliation; stripping away the male ego and replacing it with a caricature of a woman or a girl.  This humiliation can be extreme and harsh or more benevolent and nurturing, like dealing with a child.

Both scenarios can be emotionally complex.  This underscores the importance in choosing the right Mistress or partner to help you with the exploration.

Does desiring to be feminized mean that I am gay or bi-sexual? 

Absolutely not!  Some men get fully dressed for the first time and declare themselves lesbians.  Others crave to suck cock, but I don’t think it’s done anything more than bring to the surface what has been swirling around underneath.

What happens in a feminization session?

There is no “typical” session when it comes to gender play.  Sessions that involve feminization are as wide and varied as you can possibly imagine.  They may involve forced feminization where the man is made to dress and behave like a slut and involve humiliation or it may be the opposite where a man wants to embrace his feminine side and feel the empowerment that comes from being a woman.  The spectrum between these extremes is where we normally play.

Here are some possible activities:

  • Dressing – from sissy to slutty to elegant.
  • Makeup – trans makeup to full drag queen and anything between.
  • Manicure/Pedicure – out at a salon or in the privacy of the feminization area
  • Esthetician services:  waxing, eyebrow threading, shaving, facial, etc.
  • Full transformations that include makeup, wig, outfits, heels, etc.
  • Sissy training – teaching you to act like a proper sissy, learning to curtsy, talk, walk, etc.
  • Sissy maid training – learning to serve dominant females in various ways.
  • Slut training – learning to suck a strap on, strap on training, etc.
  • Medical scenes – enemas (getting your period), pussy/anal training, mock castrations/gender reassignment, etc.
  • Public outings – this can include salon visits, dance clubs, dinner outings, shopping, etc.

As you can see, the options and combination of activities are almost endless and are defined by your imagination.

Here are links to reviews of sessions that involved gender play, crossdressing and sissy play.

Crossdressing help and feminization session

Pressing “Candy” into service at FemDom Mansion

Training sissy slut “Martina”

Transforming “Dianna”

Panty Slut Pamela’s overnight in the Dungeon

“Vanessa’s” gender reassignment

I also suggest read this interview at Simply Sxy about How to Explore and Enjoy Gender Play.

To set up your feminization session, visit MistressAyn.com, read through the and complete the experience/fetish form when you are ready to book. I also offer phone consultations and distance training for crossdresser and sissies.

 

 

 

 

Using a persona with your kink

There are a number of reasons you might want to use a different persona when participating in BDSM or kink activities. We discuss a few in this short clip.

Trials and Tribulations of a chastity slave – #33

The Emergence of a Sissy Slut – by slaveboy jaime

i have long believed in the Supremacy of Women, so becoming a submissive to Mistress Ayn was not a surprise to me, however the depth of that commitment does pleasantly shock me.  i do not know how deep inside of me was the desire to also become a sissy slut, but Mistress Ayn located that and is exploiting it to my amazement and Her (and my) enjoyment.

It is one thing to have Mistress Ayn spend what seems like hours up close and personal with me.  i treasure those times when She carefully and precisely applies makeup and transforms me into the sissy She desires.  Then a variety of Mistresses and Goddesses enjoy the task of selecting what i am to wear – sometimes silly and other times quite elegant (as my “bride’s outfit” for the collaring ceremony at the FemDom Mansion) – in order to serve Them at dinner or be the perfect hostess at a cocktail party or perform as a Burlesque dancer.

Yet, recently, there has been a major transformation in my “sissyhood.”  i am now purchasing a new sissy wardrobe for myself to wear privately around my house or upon command for Zoom sessions with Mistress Ayn – not only on display at the FemDom Mansion.  With guidance from Mistress Ayn, i search websites for that perfectly sissified pair of stockings, or garter belt, or corset, or bedtime wear, or French maid’s outfit.

When i wear these clothes i feel my “sissy-self” emerging.  i feel more in touch with “my feminine side,” a cliché but true.  i feel complete in having this part of my personality emerge.  i feel sexy, yet submissive.  And, the corsets, it is like someone is hugging me with the soft texture of the material but the firmly embracing me through the tightly laced ribbons securely tied.

This is all still quite new for me but i am treasuring what i am now experiencing.  It is good to find a new and comfortable side of my personality and even more exhilarating that it seems to please my Mistress.

i often wondered if She dressed me up – once as Mistress Ayn’s Mini-Me for a Halloween party at the FemDom Mansion – because She liked it, which is sufficient for me.  But, now i am thinking that Mistress Ayn saw this part of me way-down, deep inside my psyche and has helped bring it out so i can enjoy it because She cares for me so very much as Her chaste and owned slaveboy.

Review of the Evil Shells CBT device

The good folks at Ony-shop.com sent Me some toys to try out and review.  Here is My take on the Evil Shells CBT device.  The Safe For Work version is available on YouTube.

The uncensored version can be seen on My AVN page

In the uncensored video you can see Me put it on one of My submissives and demonstrate its use.

Or you can see it on Oxy-shop’s website and shop for some toys while you are there.

Trials and tribulations of a chastity slave – #32

When Mistress Ayn declares indefinite chastity – by slave boy

After achieving my “two years in chastity” anniversary, i thought it prudent to reflect upon my experience as Mistress Ayn took charge of my orgasms.  She decided if i could orgasm, when i should orgasm, and how i should orgasm.  She also made it clear that i should be in chastity indefinite, so the pattern described next seems to be my life now, as Mistress Ayn’s chaste slaveboy.

During my days of pre-chastity, i would masturbate to a powerful orgasm 3 times a week, that is 156 times in a year. But now ….

In 2019, i was allowed: 8 “real” orgasms, 8 “ruined” orgasms, and one “forced” orgasm, a total of 17 “releases.”

In 2020, i was allowed: 6 “real orgasms, 6 “ruined orgasms, and 4 “forced” orgasms, a total of 16 “releases.”

In 2020, my “releases” were:

Jan 20 = 3 “forced” (rapid) orgasms

Jan 31 = “ruined” orgasm

Mar 15 = “real” orgasm

Apr 8 = “real” orgasm

Apr 30 = “real” orgasm

May 18 = “real” orgasm

Jun 22 = “ruined” orgasm

Jul 22 = “ruined” orgasm

Sep 3 = “ruined” orgasm

Sep 21 = “forced” orgasm with vibrator

Oct 22 = “ruined” orgasm

Oct 29 – “real orgasm” with clothespins attached to Her balls and the Edge in my ass

Nov 12 = “forced” orgasm with vibrator

Dec 26 – “real orgasm”

Dec 29 – “ruined” orgasm

Dec 31 – “real orgasm”

i definitely see a pattern here – about the same number of orgasms each year while in indefinite chastity (an average of 1.3 per month or 0.3 per week) and less than half of the permitted or ordered orgasms are “real” or pleasurable orgasms.

No complaint, no opinion, simply reporting and committing to my complete devotion and obedience to You, Mistress Ayn, as Your chaste slaveboy.

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