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Trials and tribulations of a chastity slave – Finding to correct way to say “I love You, Mistress”

Installment #36 – Finding to correct way to say “I love You, Mistress” by slaveboy jaime

Recently, i have felt a greater commitment and devotion to my Mistress, Mistress Ayn, yet words have failed me in my effort to clearly express what it is that i truly feel.  In my quest for understanding i turned to the Ancient Greeks – odd? perhaps! – to find clarity.

The Greeks have seven different words for love, each expressing a different sentiment.  Most commonly, people say “I love you” and mean “eros.”  Eros speaks of a romantic love, a feeling of passion.  This may be common among partners in a loving relationship, such as a wife and husband, or girlfriend and boyfriend.  But that misses the mark for my feelings as a submissive and my Mistress Ayn.

There is “phila” or a love between friends.  i feel that toward other Mistresses and Goddesses i have met and served at the FemDom Mansion or Atlanta Dungeon.  i treasure these relationships and love serving Them.  Yet, again not the special type of love i have for my Mistress Ayn.

“Storge” comes closer since it expresses a love that in unconditional and relational.  i am unconditionally committed to my Owner, Mistress Ayn, and will do whatever She orders me.  But, still not quite on point for my feeling of “love” toward Mistress Ayn.

Then i found it – “agape.”  Agape is a love that is typically reserved for a universal love, the love one has for a God (or in this case, a Goddess).  It is a love between unequals.  Yes, that is it – “Agape” – the proper expression of my love for my Mistress.  Agape is the deep felt expression of my devotion, a willingness to completely surrender to Her, to be or do whatever She wants or needs from me – slave, sissy, bitch, servant, and so many more roles.  Agape is how i understand Her role in my life, as my Mistress, Owner, Keyholder, Teacher and so many more.

Agape – i love You, Mistress Ayn. – slaveboy

Review of double session with Goddess Samantha

Goddess Samantha and I have known each other for many years and we are friends in and out of the Dungeon.  We love playing together and it shows.  So when Her “wolverine” asked to serve us both, I was delighted.  A little background on wolverine;  he loves heavy corporal sessions and Goddess Samantha named him wolverine because he recovers so quickly.  I had been wanting a piece of him since I first saw clips of them together.  I must say, he did not disappoint,

Some photos are below and a full review of the session is posted on Domina.ms.

Here are a few of My favorite snippets:

“On to the spanking bench, feet and hands secured. Strap around waist and collar hooked to bench, I wasn’t going anywhere. A large selection of spoons, straps, brushes, and paddles were ready, including two metal paddles, my pair of vintage tawses, and a cable hockey puck paddle. Samantha started in with her monogrammed leather strap attempting to brand her name on my ass, things escalated quickly.”

“At one point Samantha was swinging two handed with her large studded paddle, Ayn in front, hands on my shoulders presumably to keep me and the bench from flying across the room. Serious PAIN! Quite an arm on Samantha muscle. Side note-Mistress Ayn may suffer from OCD, she mercilessly beat one cheek in an effort to match the other.”

“Plain and simply an incredible scene, everyone just ‘clicked’ from start to finish. I’ve played with a long list of Dommes, and it’s a very short list of those I would play with again. Mistress Ayn joined Goddess Samantha on that very short list. Thank You Ladies for an UNFORGETTABLE experience!!!” – wolverine

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