Monthly Archives: May 2019

New Sardax portrait comission.

Tuesday, 14 May 2019 14:48
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As a special birthday present a long time DC sub comissioned a portrait from the world famous FemDom artist, Sardax.  His idea was to capture some of our play and since he is a RHT stocking fetishist it was only natural for My feet to be covered only in stockings.  Breath play and CBT are also among our favorite activities and we have literally spent hours over the past few years in a very similar position as the one depicted.  It will have a special place in My heart and in My home.

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The art of Sardax:

Trials and Tribulations of a chastity slave – Installment #10

Friday, 10 May 2019 17:57
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Installment #10 – Mistress Ayn is a “cat person”

Before anyone, especially Mistress Ayn, is offended by the title of this installment, let me explain.  A wise Mistress explained to me that “a cat often plays with what it has captured before devouring it.”  When realizing that Mistress Ayn has that same practice when training me, i smiled acknowledging that Mistress Ayn is a “cat person,” both in Her behavior as my Mistress and in real life (i know, i was ordered to clean out the cat litter box as Her slave).  There are many examples of how Mistress Ayn “plays with me as Her captive slave.”

Recently, Mistress Ayn ordered me to perform three days of ball torture (rubbing with my hands, rubbing with ice, and hard slapping) while still in chastity after weeks of denial in preparation for an eventual orgasm.

Occasionally Mistress Ayn permits me to be released from Her cage for successive days.  She then orders me to tease and deny Her cock each day for longer periods of time but never permitted to orgasm as the tension builds.

When preparing for another weekend of slave training at the FemDom Mansion, Mistress Ayn would only provide vague references about what was in store for my weekend of slave training.  Enough to get me thinking and worried, but never enough to let me know what actually might happen.

Mistress Ayn has suggested in an email that i may be allowed to orgasm on an undetermined day in the near future with tasks to perform until then, but i never really know if an orgasm will actually occur or She will take it away from me.

There is a pattern of toying with me as Her slave, like a cat that toys with its captured prey before devouring it.  Mistress Ayn is definitely a “cat person.”

Trials and Tribulations of a chastity slave – Installment #9

Thursday, 02 May 2019 20:05
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Installment #9 – Breaking down “hard limits”

As Mistress Ayn’s chastity slave i am finding that many of my so-called “hard limits” are dropping off that list.  Before becoming Mistress Ayn’s slaveboy, i passionately resisted many things:

  1. Gag – with a quick reflex against objects in my mouth,
  2. Blindfold – wanting to see what was going on in a session,
  3. Piercing – afraid of blood being drawn during a session and the pain associated with piercings,
  4. Marks from whipping – again afraid of drawn blood, a worry over marks being seen by others in my vanilla life, and the potential for intense pain,
  5. Anal play – uncomfortable with any activity in my ass and fearful of the pain involved,
  6. Foot worship – disinterested in touching anyone’s feet or having my own touched,
  7. Feminization – never considered myself to pass as a woman – which is how i viewed this play,
  8. No safe words – always needing a way out of the play, and

Collectively all of these hard limits have disappeared and their presence are a mainstay in my current slave training.

Why? There appears to be two primary reasons.

Most importantly, i am now being trained by a Mistress whom i completely trust.  Mistress Ayn, and other Mistresses i serve, know how to introduce these activities into a session without causing me harm or raising unnecessary fears.  They are presented sanely and safely but still with intensity.  Mistress Ayn also has made it clear that these activities bring pleasure to Her and Her friends and that is my ultimate goal as a submissive.  Oddly, i now crave many of these activities in a session since they are amazing experiences in my journey as Mistress Ayn’s chaste slaveboy.

Secondly, i am learning how to give up control.  Rather than orchestrating a session by imposing these hard limits, i am simply asking for three things: to be controlled, humiliated and experience pain.  This tri-fold desire runs counter to many of my former hard limits.  By giving up the control in a session and more and more in my life, i am accepting, even embracing, new experiences, such as each of these so-called hard limits on the list.

A lesson learned, at the hands of a skilled Mistress whom i trust completely, is a wonderful lesson learned.

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