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Trials and Tribulations of a chastity slave – #33

Sunday, 05 December 2021 20:53
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The Emergence of a Sissy Slut – by slaveboy jaime

i have long believed in the Supremacy of Women, so becoming a submissive to Mistress Ayn was not a surprise to me, however the depth of that commitment does pleasantly shock me.  i do not know how deep inside of me was the desire to also become a sissy slut, but Mistress Ayn located that and is exploiting it to my amazement and Her (and my) enjoyment.

It is one thing to have Mistress Ayn spend what seems like hours up close and personal with me.  i treasure those times when She carefully and precisely applies makeup and transforms me into the sissy She desires.  Then a variety of Mistresses and Goddesses enjoy the task of selecting what i am to wear – sometimes silly and other times quite elegant (as my “bride’s outfit” for the collaring ceremony at the FemDom Mansion) – in order to serve Them at dinner or be the perfect hostess at a cocktail party or perform as a Burlesque dancer.

Yet, recently, there has been a major transformation in my “sissyhood.”  i am now purchasing a new sissy wardrobe for myself to wear privately around my house or upon command for Zoom sessions with Mistress Ayn – not only on display at the FemDom Mansion.  With guidance from Mistress Ayn, i search websites for that perfectly sissified pair of stockings, or garter belt, or corset, or bedtime wear, or French maid’s outfit.

When i wear these clothes i feel my “sissy-self” emerging.  i feel more in touch with “my feminine side,” a cliché but true.  i feel complete in having this part of my personality emerge.  i feel sexy, yet submissive.  And, the corsets, it is like someone is hugging me with the soft texture of the material but the firmly embracing me through the tightly laced ribbons securely tied.

This is all still quite new for me but i am treasuring what i am now experiencing.  It is good to find a new and comfortable side of my personality and even more exhilarating that it seems to please my Mistress.

i often wondered if She dressed me up – once as Mistress Ayn’s Mini-Me for a Halloween party at the FemDom Mansion – because She liked it, which is sufficient for me.  But, now i am thinking that Mistress Ayn saw this part of me way-down, deep inside my psyche and has helped bring it out so i can enjoy it because She cares for me so very much as Her chaste and owned slaveboy.

Trials and tribulations of a chastity slave – #32

Monday, 08 November 2021 22:09
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When Mistress Ayn declares indefinite chastity – by slave boy

After achieving my “two years in chastity” anniversary, i thought it prudent to reflect upon my experience as Mistress Ayn took charge of my orgasms.  She decided if i could orgasm, when i should orgasm, and how i should orgasm.  She also made it clear that i should be in chastity indefinite, so the pattern described next seems to be my life now, as Mistress Ayn’s chaste slaveboy.

During my days of pre-chastity, i would masturbate to a powerful orgasm 3 times a week, that is 156 times in a year. But now ….

In 2019, i was allowed: 8 “real” orgasms, 8 “ruined” orgasms, and one “forced” orgasm, a total of 17 “releases.”

In 2020, i was allowed: 6 “real orgasms, 6 “ruined orgasms, and 4 “forced” orgasms, a total of 16 “releases.”

In 2020, my “releases” were:

Jan 20 = 3 “forced” (rapid) orgasms

Jan 31 = “ruined” orgasm

Mar 15 = “real” orgasm

Apr 8 = “real” orgasm

Apr 30 = “real” orgasm

May 18 = “real” orgasm

Jun 22 = “ruined” orgasm

Jul 22 = “ruined” orgasm

Sep 3 = “ruined” orgasm

Sep 21 = “forced” orgasm with vibrator

Oct 22 = “ruined” orgasm

Oct 29 – “real orgasm” with clothespins attached to Her balls and the Edge in my ass

Nov 12 = “forced” orgasm with vibrator

Dec 26 – “real orgasm”

Dec 29 – “ruined” orgasm

Dec 31 – “real orgasm”

i definitely see a pattern here – about the same number of orgasms each year while in indefinite chastity (an average of 1.3 per month or 0.3 per week) and less than half of the permitted or ordered orgasms are “real” or pleasurable orgasms.

No complaint, no opinion, simply reporting and committing to my complete devotion and obedience to You, Mistress Ayn, as Your chaste slaveboy.

Trials and tribulations of a chastity slave – #31

Tuesday, 22 June 2021 13:27
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Installment 31 – When a submissive is asked by his Mistress: “What do you think?” – by slaveboy.

In the heat of an intense tease and denial session, Mistress Ayn asked me: “Do you want to cum, slaveboy?”  The obvious, immediate, physically induced, sexually frustrated answer is: “Yes, please, Mistress, please let me cum.”  Yet, deep down inside, at the core of my submissive nature, there is a desire for denial, to be kept from an orgasm by my dominant Mistress.  i crave to be stopped just short of an orgasm and ordered to be locked back into Her chastity cage.

This moment caused me to reflect later – “should a submissive be asked what s/he thinks or wants?”  i am less comfortable with that task for two reasons.

First, as a submissive i often decide incorrectly or too tentatively.  i did not want to be placed in indefinite chastity (i wanted to try chastity but not necessarily indefinitely), or to have my nipples pierced, or be dressed in drag by Mistress Ayn and Her friends, or be chained in the dungeon overnight, or to eat from a dog bowl, or be subjected to painful discipline from a whip or cane, and so many, many more things.  Mistress Ayn jokes about my “hard limit” list, which has disappeared as i have given up control to Mistress Ayn.  These experiences are some of the very best things i have endured, as Mistress Ayn’s owned slaveboy and i treasure them.  When i let go, gave up control, stopped thinking for myself and trusted Mistress Ayn, things became so much better in my life.

Second, as a submissive it is unnatural for me to think – that is a form of control.  i am a slave, Mistress Ayn is my owner.  Her role is to control me, my role is to obey Her.  She uses me for Her pleasure, my primary responsibility is to please Her.  Thinking or exerting any sort of control into O/our relationship often ends up with me in trouble.  Thinking is not what She needs from me nor what i am particularly good at as Her slave.  Listening to my Mistress and fulfilling Her commands is my role as Her owned slaveboy.  Over time, as i become more obedient and sensitive to Her wishes, i become a better owned and chaste slaveboy and Mistress Ayn is pleased with me.

However, a Mistress should ask Her slave anything She wants.  She does not and likely will not do what the slave asks for, but She may be interested in knowing what the slave is thinking.  And, i have learned that the best response is – Whatever pleases you, Mistress Ayn.  That truly has become what i am thinking and what i want the most.

Collaring slaves

Wednesday, 16 June 2021 14:05
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Collaring a submissive is something I have always been resistant to, for several reasons.  I am a believer in long term relationships and I take commitment very seriously.  The act of collaring, to Me, is not a whim.  On the contrary it is much like a marriage.  I become responsible for the sub and everything the sub does is now a reflection on Me.  That’s heavy stuff.

The pandemic has been difficult in many ways but it has made Me reevaluate the things that are important to Me.  When times are difficult you learn who you can really depend on  and it became clear to Me that I have some spectacular subs.  Among those a few really stand out because of their long time exclusive devotion, the things they do to go the extra mile, their dependability, special skills or a combination of all of the above.  But mainly I realized there were a few subs that I knew I could really depend on.  If I were stranded in another state or hurt on the side of the road, they would move heaven and earth to rescue Me.  They would be family.

Because of this I decided to collar 3 additional subs this year and all three are now members of My kinky family.  Prior to this I had only the one collared sub, aka slave jaime, Ayn’s slaveboy.  It was a touchy subject to inform slaveboy he now had “brothers” but he accepted the news well.  I have encouraged My collared subs to get to know each other and I think that has only strengthened their bond.

The subs:

joe – My joe has served Me over a decade.  He has been the rock I needed during the rehabbing of two Dungeons.  He is the guy you call when a crisis occurs and he is always there ready to help.   In reality I should have collared joe years ago, so although he is not My first collared sub, I do consider him the alpha sub.

Ayn’s pet aka paddles – My pet has also served Me for at least a decade.  He has been loyal and fun but more recently he has become even more.  He is the one that volunteers sweat labor when he sees something needing done.  He has made Dungeon furniture, cleaned carpets, done yard work, filmed, you name it.   He has never refused a thing I asked.

Ayn’s toy – My toy was an easy decision but for different reasons.  During the pandemic he offered his support in important ways.  I could tell anytime he was able to help, he felt fulfilled by it in a way beyond how a typical person might feel.   It’s as if service completes him and I don’t know if I have ever met a soul quite like him.  He wormed his way into My heart in a comparatively short period of time, but I think he is here to stay.

These men have made a vow to serve and honor Me and I made a vow to protect and support them and be worthy of their service.  I hope we continue to make each other proud.  Yes, that is some heavy stuff.

A 48 hour weekend at FemDom Mansion

Saturday, 17 April 2021 23:58
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FemDom Mansion Dungeon

We managed to pull off another safe yet fantastic weekend at FemDom Mansion in Atlanta.  The guest list was shorter than usual but the event was long on FemDom fun.  It also provided some great opportunities for My slaveboy’s continued training on his 8th visit.

As a special “surprise” we had Goddess B fly in from DC.  When she arrived on Saturday, slaveboy was completely shocked.  He had been trying to guess what the surprise would be and when he saw her walk in, the look on his face was priceless.  All the ladies had a much needed weekend of pampering and fun.  It was definitely a win win weekend.

As is tradition, slaveboy has written his top 15 experiences (upped from 13) and they have been posted on the FemDom Mansion site.

See the full review on Domina.ms/reviews or the write up and photo gallery at FemDom Mansion.

 

 

 

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