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Trials and Tribulations of a chastity slave – Installment #9

Thursday, 02 May 2019 20:05
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Installment #9 – Breaking down “hard limits”

As Mistress Ayn’s chastity slave i am finding that many of my so-called “hard limits” are dropping off that list.  Before becoming Mistress Ayn’s slaveboy, i passionately resisted many things:

  1. Gag – with a quick reflex against objects in my mouth,
  2. Blindfold – wanting to see what was going on in a session,
  3. Piercing – afraid of blood being drawn during a session and the pain associated with piercings,
  4. Marks from whipping – again afraid of drawn blood, a worry over marks being seen by others in my vanilla life, and the potential for intense pain,
  5. Anal play – uncomfortable with any activity in my ass and fearful of the pain involved,
  6. Foot worship – disinterested in touching anyone’s feet or having my own touched,
  7. Feminization – never considered myself to pass as a woman – which is how i viewed this play,
  8. No safe words – always needing a way out of the play, and

Collectively all of these hard limits have disappeared and their presence are a mainstay in my current slave training.

Why? There appears to be two primary reasons.

Most importantly, i am now being trained by a Mistress whom i completely trust.  Mistress Ayn, and other Mistresses i serve, know how to introduce these activities into a session without causing me harm or raising unnecessary fears.  They are presented sanely and safely but still with intensity.  Mistress Ayn also has made it clear that these activities bring pleasure to Her and Her friends and that is my ultimate goal as a submissive.  Oddly, i now crave many of these activities in a session since they are amazing experiences in my journey as Mistress Ayn’s chaste slaveboy.

Secondly, i am learning how to give up control.  Rather than orchestrating a session by imposing these hard limits, i am simply asking for three things: to be controlled, humiliated and experience pain.  This tri-fold desire runs counter to many of my former hard limits.  By giving up the control in a session and more and more in my life, i am accepting, even embracing, new experiences, such as each of these so-called hard limits on the list.

A lesson learned, at the hands of a skilled Mistress whom i trust completely, is a wonderful lesson learned.

A Double Dose – Session review of a double with Goddess Samantha

Monday, 05 June 2017 11:25
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Samantha and AynThere is a reason why so many subs fantasize about a double Domme session.  When the chemistry is there and everything clicks – it’s pure awesomeness.

Excerpt from a recent review that appeared on Max Fisch:

“I have sessioned with Goddess Samantha on two previous occasions and have come away totally spent. But I still have fantasized about two dominatrix’s doing there thing with me. Mistress Ayn is another gorgeous dominatrix at the Atlanta Dungeon that I was struck by. So I inquired with the Goddess Samantha if she liked to do doubles with The Mistress. I was informed that she loved doubles with the Mistress, and they had great chemistry together. So I set up a double session with the both of them. And found out the hard way that they are absolutely great together with great chemistry. They feed on each others sadistic streak. Finally the day had come to do this double, everything was ready.

. . .  After the flogging, came the smacks across my ass, Goddess had the left cheek and Mistress had the right cheek, I was instructed to call out ether Goddess or Mistress according to which side I felt the smack. Faster and faster harder and harder, if I called out incorrectly I would receive an unbelievably hard crack across my ass for my mistake. I got plenty of those.

While Goddess continued to redden my back side, Mistress began the CBT from the front, this was becoming a mind overload . . .

I could hear Mistress conversing with Goddess “Oh look how hard his balls are under all that weight” said Mistress, the both of them talking and joking over my predicament. I could tell these two really are enjoying what they do. This added a degree of humiliation to the scene as well. The whole time Goddess was working over my chest like a dominatrix with a vengeance. This became sensory overload and continued for some time.

. . . . Then I was sharply guided by the rope still attached to my balls over to the bondage table, and quickly secured hand and foot by both Goddess and Mistress. I again could hear Goddess and Mistress conversing and having a laugh over my next fate.

Soon the Mistress was attaching stick on contacts for a tens unit around my dick and nut sack while Goddess was setting up the tens controller. They tested the tens by how high I jumped when Mistress turned up the power. I was jumping pretty high when Mistress asked “what setting do you think that was (1 to 10)” I guessed a 7 or 8 “oh no that was a 2” said Mistress, and the power increases exponentially “now don’t yell too loud because this unit will increase power by the amount of noise present” Then Mistress gave the control a good crank I about came off the table, that unit was really rattling my balls. Again and again Goddess and Mistress laughing loudly causing the energy to hit me harder and harder. I tried in vain to scream softly so as to not add to the volume . . .

Goddess noticed that limit coming on and decided to give me a real treat, climbed up on the bondage table and lowered that gorgeous ass on my face really hard, controlling my breath. Mistress then started asking me questions so when I would answer Goddess would squat down on my face hard and shut me up. Mistress really enjoyed that.

Time for the Golden Shower . . .   I was soaked from top of my head to my chest” Oh Potty face” said Mistress, then asked Goddess should we allow him to take a shower. Worried me for a moment but was then allowed to wash up. my nipples were bruised blue and my dick so sore from the energy of that tens I could barely hold it to take a leak.

Many thanks Goddess Samantha and Mistress Ayn for giving me a double dose session, what I ask for, just the way I like it.

To read this review in its entirety, visit Max Fisch.

 

A poem for Mistress Ayn

Monday, 06 February 2017 20:02
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warrenI was contacted by a submissive who wanted Me to take over control of his cock.  It was a simple enough request.  I would call him anytime, day or night, and ask if My cock was hard.  If it wasn’t he had to take the necessary measures to make sure it was standing at attention for Me.  I agreed to take on the responsibility of clyde’s cock, but I added a stipulation – clyde wasn’t allowed to ejaculate.  Hmmm . . . hard cock, held chaste for Me.  I love it.

After about 2 weeks of this, poor clyde was in agony, so we scheduled a session.  I decided to ratchet things up a bit the day of his session.  (That’s a big surprise, right?)  He was instructed to wear tight thong underwear that would effectively strap the phone to his cock and balls.  The phone was put on vibrate and for the next 24 hours, I tortured clyde’s cock remotely.  From the wee hours of the morning through the business meetings he had the next day – I was ruthless.

One of clyde’s many tasks over the preceding two weeks was to write Me a poem.  He presented Me with the poem at our session and I made him read it to Me aloud.  What I had expected was a glorified limerick.  What he gave Me was 3 page manifesto.  So I teased him while he read to Me by calling the phone that was still strapped to his cock.  By now his cock was so sensitive that we would jump and dance around while it rang.  What a site!  Poor clyde in his tight little black thong, jumping around while trying to read his ode to Me.  The vision still brings a smile to My face.

The photo to the right is a picture of clyde’s poem.  It is a little crinkled because I used it to clean the pre-cum off his cock during the session.  Clyde was a very messy boy.

 

 

 

FAQ #24 – What is the deal with enema play?

Monday, 31 October 2016 17:18
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ds22m4_edited-1 (2)Enema play is one of My favorite forms of play.  It is so versatile and can range from subtle to severe.  It can be humiliating – or not.  I have used enema play to clean out sissies for man pussy training.  I have used them purely for torture – a little added pain during CBT, for example.  I have used enemas to give the lowly, weak male an idea of what We Women go through monthly.  Menstrual cramps are such a bitch and I think every man should have an idea of what they feel like.  That would probably put an end to all the PMS jokes.

Enemas are also useful for degradation.  Not being in control of your own bodily functions and/or having a Mistress present when you are finally allowed to relieve yourself can be a very debasing experience.  As a slave, being able to endure an enema without soiling yourself and then presenting yourself to your Mistress cleaner and more humble than when you arrived, can be a sweet achievement.

So, although enemas do not have a place in every BDSM scene, they do have a place in specific types of scenes.  I have seen lots of wary looks when the enema bag came out for the first time in session.  Now a lot of those same subs look forward to the cleansing routine.

Click here for more about enema sessions.  Visit Max Fisch for a full review of an enema session.

The Nurse Next Door – Session review on TER

Sunday, 20 March 2016 21:29
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Mistress AynOnce again, a slut learns you should be careful what you ask for – I might make it real.

The fantasy:  Mother has caught you masturbating.  She doesn’t like the idea that her young man is doing such naughty things in his bed at night and sends you to see the sexy nurse that lives next door.  Maybe she can teach you how to control such urges.  You have lusted after your hot neighbor every since you hit puberty.  In fact she is what you think about while you are alone in bed at night . . . but this is no ordinary nurse and this is no ordinary appointment.

An excerpt from the review on The Erotic Review:

“Upon arrival Mistress Ayn was already in role and she delivered in a big way utilizing the entire 90 minutes to push my mind, and my physical. She began by doing a thorough inspection of my anatomy and quickly coming to the conclusion that my penis was too small to please a woman ever, so she would have to provide a castration and turn me into a girl. She said the size of my nipples and man breasts would make good tits, and that she would turn me into the perfect slut . . .

She had me in a gyno chair and soon she was lubing me up to take her penis. After inserting this into me she said she would need to prepare me for a large one and it would involve an enema. She produces the equipment and began to fill an enema bag with a large pitcher of warm water. After inserting the nozzle into my ass she slowly allowed the water to fill my cavity. It was a new experience of being completely full, and at one point gave me cramps, denying me the pleasure of emptying myself she repeated that not even in this regard was I able to make this simple decision but that all choices now belonged to her.

Mistress Ayn had me – I was hers completely for the duration of time, she was completely in charge and I would have done anything she said to do. She finally allowed me to sit on the toilet as she held my chin in her hands demanding I look deeply into her eyes and beg to release, which I did. She said look into my eyes and know that I own you as you release your enema into the toilet – and I did . . .

Afterwards more insertion of anal plugs, along with heavy use of nipple clamps that pushed me to the edge – but I never said “yellow” the code word for “it’s getting to the point I cannot continue”. Instead I took it as a form of pleasing her, and she rewarded me by telling me that the little cock, since it was of no use to anyone and I was of little value, would have to come off. She wrapped it with some kind of electrical device that was also attached to my balls and she began an incredible mind fuck that involved electrical stimulation of my penis and I eventually climaxed with her threatening that would be the last orgasm I would experience with a penis and she would castrate me when we were done (fantasy play but OMG I was believing it). What an incredible physical, physiological experience. Highly recommended but be careful what you ask for.”

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