Installment #3 – The holidays as Mistress Ayn’s chaste slave – by slaveboy

To celebrate the holidays, Mistress Ayn permitted me out of chastity on Christmas Eve and Day but not allowed to touch Her cock – two days of freedom but not really. i could feel Her cock and balls dangle freely but that only made the urge to stroke more intense. This was a true test of my obedience to Mistress Ayn. After Christmas, back in the chastity cage.

On New Year’s Eve, after two weeks of nearly consistent chastity, i was permitted a one-hour edging session near the stroke of midnight. While i appreciated the opportunity for release, i was ready to orgasm almost immediately but knew to not orgasm early. A full 60 minutes later, i “recycled” the discharge from my powerful orgasm and Her cock was back in Her cage to greet the New Year.

Will 2019 be any different as Mistress Ayn’s chaste slave? In Her New Year’s Eve email, Mistress Ayn said: “Have a nice powerful orgasm, knowing that it is the last one of 2018 and possibly the last one ever.” “Who knows what the New Year will bring?” “I’m just laughing thinking about how much you are going to want the next orgasm – which may never happen.” “The New Year’s Eve orgasm may be your last orgasm ever.” These words resonate with me each day in 2019.

It is clear that being Mistress Ayn’s chaste slave requires a deeper commitment than i first imagined, but one i am willing to make. While Mistress Ayn was a bit hesitant at being my Keyholder, i did not expect Her to become so comfortable and creative in this role. Chastity control appears to be something long term for Mistress Ayn and She enjoys using the term “indefinite chastity.” Her control through chastity is requiring me to better integrate chastity, mentally and physically, into my otherwise vanilla life.